New Attitude

Hello!

Happy Saturday! I hope that you all had a wonderful, relaxing, and beautiful Saturday! It was 70 degrees and sunny out today! (Yes, I did sit outside in the sun to do homework. No, I did not actually do my homework. Yes, I did get burned.)

So, I was working with my brother earlier this week to try to get some prettier fonts, but that didn't happen because I don't understand technology. (Also, he called my blog "The Flavor of Katie". Not a bad title, not gonna lie.) It's a work in process currently, but I want to make it more like me.

Anyway, I had an epiphany earlier this week: I need a serious attitude adjustment. I didn't realize it, but for the past month or so I became very caught up in my life that I forgot about everyone around me. It was BAD, guys. I continued to use the excuse: I've been selfless for the past 18 years, just let me be selfish this one time. (As you can imagine, you can only use that excuse so many times.)

I realized that I began to put myself on this pedestal and declare myself a martyr (Okay, probably a little extreme). I created some drama with friends when they pointed it out to me. Then I realized: Whoa. Are you listening to yourself right now? Who IS this person? (I've had my fair share of moments when I've looked in the mirror and don't recognize the person staring back at me, but this was different.)

So after that I began to change my attitude. It's a work in progress and as much as I want it to happen overnight, it won't. I'm working on little stuff right now; like answering my phone right away, not answering in a short, clipped tone when I'm really annoyed, or talking slower (Don't even get me started on how many people have told me I need to talk slower.).  

I have this voice in my head that's asking: "Now what would NEW Katie do?" It's kind of a pain in the butt, but it's working. Sometimes I get mixed up with New Katie/Old Katie and struggle with who would do what, but then I remember that this is ME! And it's okay that I get it mixed up because I'm still me. I'm hoping to reach that point soon where I won't need to ask myself what would New Katie do.

I don't know if people are noticing, but it needs to be done. I still make slip-ups and go back to my old ways, but it's getting there. :)

Love,

Katie